One of my goals in life is to be a good person. In fact, above all my other endeavors, this is the one I think about most often. I want to be a good person more than anything in the world.
I don't always succeed at being good, but I like to think I try pretty darn hard.
I'm a loving daughter. I respect my parents and visit them at their home in the Sunshine State as often as I can (especially when one of them is recovering from a nasty accident - love ya dad!).
I say 'please' and 'thank you.' Even to strangers. And my husband.
I work hard. I hold myself accountable at my everyday job so other people don't have to.
I call my out-of-town besties often and I plan regular get-together's with my local gal pals, too.
But sometimes (more than I'd like to admit) I fail miserably at achieving 'goodness.'
I swear. A lot.
I'm quicker to speak than I am to think.
I don't answer emails in a timely manner.
I get frustrated by slow talkers and interrupt them.
I belch. Out loud. Sometimes I do this in public.
I speed. And if you drive slow in the left lane on the interstate and I have to pass you on the right, chances are I will salute you. Not in a nice way, either.
I (usually) think I'm right. And presume others (yes, you) are wrong.
The world I live in is black and white. Filled with what's right and what's wrong. Lawful and unlawful. I believe that everyone makes choices. You choose to be good or you choose to be evil.
Perhaps, this view, too, makes me not as good as I'd like to be.
I often find myself wondering if I'm truly good. Am I doing enough to be the person I want to be?
Most pressing on my mind as the 'Baby Jones' continues to rule my life, is what will my future children think of me? Will they notice the things I take pride in? Will they recognize my faults? Will they think I'm good?
Maybe they won't notice my pluses and minuses straight away, but at some point they will be all too aware of them. I believe that when you have nuggets, you are not only accountable for your behavior, but also (to a certain point) theirs.
You help them understand right and wrong. Lawfulness versus lawlessness. Good from evil.
I just want to be good. And I want them to be good, too.
No pressure, right?